"You recite my words right back to me before I even speak...You let me know I am understood."

I haven't posted anything in a long time, but it doesn't matter because no one looks at this anyway. Ha. It's because there's not really much to say on here. I mean, I certainly don't have an interesting enough life to actually talk about it, but I suppose most bloggers don't have interesting enough lives anyway, which is why they try to make themselves think they have interesting lives by posting where everyone can see it...but I digress.

"If and when I can clear myself of this clouded mind, I'll watch myself settle down into a place where peace can search me out and find that I'm so ready to be found."
If you can name the song that came from, you're officially a cool person. Yes, because it's Relient K. I'll give you a hint - it's on their best album.

I quoted that because it describes me well. My mind is always complicated. I don't know if I'm one of the few like this, or if a lot of people are, but it's always...like I said, complicated. For me, I can just think something. Like, my opinion about what's right. I'm not talking about issues like abortion or the death penalty or something, but how to deal with things that pop up in life. I always have at least two viewpoints - opposing viewpoints - that my mind comes up with, and so it doesn't give me peace to think through things because I second-guess myself and try to agree with both of them. That doesn't work. I can't even write out my thoughts to help sort them out because I find that I'm just contradicting myself and constantly revising and retracting statements I made two sentences ago, so that it really does nothing.

Which is another reason why this blog thing doesn't get updated often. Who wants to put themselves through that?

But I will discuss something I AM sure about, and that is God's role in our lives. I know, sounds preacher-y, right? But seriously, it's some valid stuff.

People will always let you down. I'm sure everyone has experienced this to some degree - it's human nature. It's how we were made. Why? Not really sure, but it has to do with making our own choices, having free will. But it stinks. Sometimes it's just people being stupid or jerks, and other times it's just how the cookie crumbles, through no direct fault of their own. It makes me think, why expect anything at all? Why bother hoping? Trusting?

Here's some good news though: God won't let you down. Ah, but I can hear you saying, "Of course He does! Lots of times you pray for something and it doesn't happen! You pray for help but you don't get any!" Here's the tricky part - God doesn't obey humans. Can you imagine if He did? Yuck. The world would be crazier than it already is. So if you don't get something you pray for, instead of thinking, "wow, God hates me," think, "so I guess it wasn't what needed to happen." Yes, yes, I know that's a horrible thing to say if, say, one of your relatives dies even though you prayed that they wouldn't, but you have to remember that you can't see the big picture. It seems like such a cop out to say, "oh, it'll all turn out okay, you just don't know it because you're a mere little human", but it's true. God's goal isn't to shield you from pain; it's to help you get through it. Life sucks, and full of horrible stuff that doesn't make sense. You know the saying, "God will never give you anything you can't handle?" I remember my pastor saying in a sermon a while ago that that isn't true. It's not that God will never give you anything you can't handle. It's that He will never give you anything you can't handle with Him. Whatever happens, He can handle it. I mean, He's God. Duh. But you have to let Him help you.

Which brings me to my second point. God is the ultimate best friend. Think about it: He's ALWAYS available, and you don't even have to pick up the phone. You don't even have to speak. He'll never get annoyed or frustrated with you, or judge you and say you're stupid for doing this or that, or thinking this way or asking this question. He always has good advice - perfect advice, in fact. He never gets tired of listening to you. He'll never say, "Wait a second, I need to answer this text," or "I'm sorry, but I'm really tired right now. Can we talk later?" or "Sorry, what was that? I was distracted by the octopus that just appeared outside my window." And not only that, but you don't even have to worry about making sense, or trying to find a way to say how you're feeling. He already knows all of your feelings, thoughts, desires, problems, motives. All He wants you to do is talk to Him so that you can know He's there for you.

It's a great comfort knowing that there's always someone who won't let you down, even when the rest of the world does. Sure, He's not physically there next to you, but He is the God of the whole universe. I'm pretty sure He can help you out anyway. Just sayin'.

So that's all I got.