Oh...right.

It took me forever to figure out how to get back into this thing again, it's been so long. I don't tend to post my oh-so-deep thoughts where anyone can read them - I just bug a few choice people, haha. Anyway.

I don't really have much to say, actually, except to share a couple poems. The nice thing about having a story that applies so directly to your life is that you can write a poem for one, and it'll go along with the other. Convenient how that works out, eh?

So here we go, I guess.
I wrote this one maybe a month or two ago. Or three. I can't remember.

On a roller coaster ride
Between my problems and my pride
My mind just won’t be quiet
Until it starts a riot
They tell me it’s not working
Can you see the doubt lurking?
My heart will not hear it
Though they say I should fear it
They call it not living
But they don’t know I am giving
All I’ve got
Cause it won’t stop
I’ve cast my lot
For the top
Of this life
Whether they like it or not

I’m told I should switch
Pull it out stitch by stitch
No matter if it’s damaged
Cause they think I can manage
My life without complications
Oh so many stipulations
Every choice I make is wrong
I guess I can’t belong
With the normal teeming masses
It’s like they’ve all taken classes
On how to deal
With how they feel
And what to steal
Let’s keep it real
Don’t let them know
Your heart is sealed

Always disappointed
By those I have anointed
My own mind betrays me
Will I learn? Maybe.
I always pray I get smart
So I can see my final part
How much of this is true
Can’t tell if skies are blue
By this thinking I am bound
By through this searching I’ve found
This new cry
I must always try
To see through every lie
Of all that must come by
Until truth comes through
Will I know it when I die?

~~~

And here's a nice, short, recent one. :)

Where I Am

Bring me back from the brink
Of everything that I could be
Place me here where I belong
In a boat thrown in the tossing sea

I could be erased from Earth's surface
With no more than a blink
And how much would it matter
Not that much, I think

The pain that comes with caring
I don't know if it's worth it in the end
I'm just done what I know best
Being the sacrificial friend

~~~

I have another one but I'm too lazy to type it up right now and it's almost midnight...ugh. I value sleep more than typing up my stupid poems. So good night! :)